IT WAS BEAUTIFUL

The clock strikes ten but 24 hours ago seemed a blur
from tears and blood to smiles and laughter echoing from across the room
it was as if my memories work in its own time continuum and what hurt yesterday didn’t hurt as much today

or was it my defense mechanism, building up walls on top of the ruins of whoever has left
You came and conquered a barren land, an already defeated army, left with only broken pieces from the previous war
but your journey was short
nothing worth it, as you decided
so you pick up and left and I was left with a half constructed heaven
lost and alone as I search for any flaws that I didn’t already know I have
what else could’ve gotten wrong this time?

or maybe it was because I didn’t actually hold you as dear to my heart as I thought I did
maybe the spear that I would take for you is not in the form of a heart outside my chest but merely a target on the wall a yard away from me

maybe there was a scoreboard somewhere that kept track of the hits and the punches
and care and the love and we were just too oblivious

or maybe it really is that easy, not just for you but for me on the receiving end as well

maybe it was a silent wish on a birthday cake candle that came true in the form of a heartbreak

It was beautiful while it lasts

-n.n.i