Story of My Life

Assalammualaikum and hello,

For this entry, I would like to share something deep in my heart about something that deep in my heart. Anyway, it just my thought from my heart and not have any relationship between the others person who still alive or not. It's like serious topics , right? I don't think so. I think it would be serious or boring topics indeed.

Firstly, are you think that what it would be for your future? You know, I'm very scared to face that. Of course I scare, aren't you? You know I always think that what happen to my future? Isn't just okay or not. For right now I fighting to make sure that my future just okay and I can get a stable career and comfortable life. It not just being comfortable it's like to have a good life you know? Like you know, you also think about that right? When I looked back on my life, I see pain, mistakes and heartache. When I look into the mirror, I see strength, learn lessons, and pride in myself. So, I try my best to make sure that I can graduated and have a good life. Sometimes peoples think that why we should think about future? You know, if you've done the very best you can, worrying won't make it any better. Always believing that something wonderful is about to happen.

Sometimes you climb out of bed in the morning and you think, " I'm not going to make it." But you laugh inside, remembering all times you've felt that way. A person told me that, " no matter how good or bad you think life is, wake up each day and be thankful for life, someone somewhere else is fighting to survive." So what do you think? I prefer that this life would be easy only, but it wouldn't. You must face all the reality is and always be grateful what you've in 'our life. I know some people say it's not easy to make it all good but you know you must fighting to face that. Easy or not it about your future. Be okay with not knowing for sure what's coming next, but know that whatever it is, you'll be okay.

I'm also right now will not have any relationship with another person. I don't care anymore if people ask me isn't me already have the boyfriend or not. I'm just want to focus only to my goals only. I think about the relationship I'll pause it for a moment. You think of I'm crazy and not follow the trend? You know I don't have the boyfriend and  it's my problem for me to have it or not. You should not bother any people's relationship. I'm too young to give my heart and soul to the person that I don't know is it my future husband or not. So I already choose the right one for me. I think I will focus on my study, get a stable career, achieve my goals and dreams. Not only that, being a good person that I can help my parents. And you, what do you think?

What about the career that I would interest in? I already have it. Since primary school till high school,  my career I choose is being a doctor. You know I very like that course, so I think I will not change my ambitions anymore. For right now, I must. Because what? Because the world needs. My mom said that I must choose what the world needs. Of course, some careers no need more peoples. So I think I would choose what best I in so that I will focus on it only. But you know, I'm very love to be a doctor. You know what, I really want to help the people. You know the feeling when you the people who in sick and make them better and have a better life, I don't know how to tell the feel. I'm grateful can help them. You know, I want to make good deeds. Jane Fonda said that, if the career you have chosen has some unexpected inconvenience, console yourself by reflecting that no career is without them. I think I must believe the beauty in my dreams what I want to be next.

You know as long as you've got passion, faith, and are willing to work hard, you can do anything and have anything you want in this world. Dreams don't work unless you do. Work hard and achieve anything. Aim bigger. Dream bigger. Fearless. Love more. Look after yourself. Be grateful. Stay blessed. Trust your struggle. It's now or never. Keep it bright. Don't wait for the perfect moment, take the moment and make it perfect. Benjamin Spock said, "Trust yourself. You know more than you think you do."

Stop wishing. Start doing.

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